dayglofannypack

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 11:45:57 GMT

i lost four pounds! i'm down to 31 lost! i wore my smallest-ever pants COMFORTABLY yesterday! good times!

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 14:43:33 GMT

yesterday was my six month anniversary on weight watchers. i figured this would be a perfect time to enlighten everyone with my revelations! joyous events abound!

since january i have lost 27 pounds. i honestly thought that i would have lost more by now. i thought, originally, that i would have lost at least 40 by now but i was hoping for 50ish. that's probably unrealistic. in fact, i think i know it is. however, i look back to the six week struggle i had with the 19th pound and i wonder if, i had taken it more seriously, would i have lost more than that by now? who knows. it's in the past and i'm not going to look back.

i'm currently going through a month-long maintenance. i'm not too worried about that because, for the three weeks before that, i lost 7 pounds very quickly and i didn't want to gain it back at a similar pace. to not be gaining weight makes me so happy. this last month has made it very difficult to stay on track but i think i've done a great job. i'm honestly surprised i haven't gained, but i think that's just because my mind thinks a whole lot differently now.

that's the thing i've noticed about weight watchers. when i consume something large, point-y, alcoholic, etc., i have feelings. i don't feel GUILTY... i just feel... aware. i feel upset that i consumed more points than i should, but then i'm always like, "hey, rach. see how this makes you feel? yeah. don't do it again, bitch!" i always think, in my head, that i've done worse than i really did. then, when i go to log what i ate i'm like, you know, it wasn't as bad as i thought. i guess in my brain i have these limits, this awareness, that keep me from eating like i used to and doing bad things. the limits aren't scary and unrealistic, though. they allow me to still enjoy myself. i like that.

confidence... have i gained any of that? i think i have, at least a little. i know i look a little better but i've just been so unhappy with my looks for so long that i can't comprehend me being even the slightest bit attractive. at least my boyfriend thinks so!

ah, boyfriend. we've been together for almost two months. actually, i met him exactly two months ago today. we've been inseperable ever since. i'm not saying that i landed him solely because i lost weight... but i bet i look prettier or whatever because of it. honestly, though? since meeting him i lost 7 pounds, and those 7 pounds made a HUGE difference in my appearance. plus he's super super super into my personality. yeah, he came up to me at the party to talk to me cause i was a pretty girl, but he was hooked when i jumped up on two coolers with him and started rocking out and joking around. true story. the day after the party i thought, he'll never call me. but he did. then i thought, but we'll only be friends cause i'm not a girl that guys go for. but he did. ahhh. but like i said, i'm almost positive it's not weight watchers that got me the greatest boyfriend of all time, but maybe it helped a little. i don't like to think that weight loss brings boys, so i'm not gonna think that it did.

i eat so much healthier now. i've always been a healthy person but i don't sit there and eat bags of chocolate anymore. my 18s are unwearable and my 16s are roomy. shirts fit me better. my arms are smaller. my thighs look a little bit better. i was showing people the tan line(s) on my belly and i wasn't embarrassed. i still have double chins in pictures, but it's ONLY in pictures, and it's ONLY because i rarely make normal faces.

and i'm happier. i don't know if it's because of my amazing boyfriend or what. but i'm happier.

hurray for weight watchers. now if i could just go about getting back on track.

Wed, 18 May 2005 11:50:35 GMT

i've officially lost 4 more pounds.

i've officially lost 26 pounds on weight watchers.

i've officially lost over 10% of my weight.

amazing.

Tue, 10 May 2005 02:01:34 GMT

i must have looked like an asshole on my treadmill today. i was rocking out like a 16 year old boy at a punk rock concert. also, i was practicing my air drum solos. hello, nerd.

today was the first day ever (other than this one time, so i guess it was my second day ever...haha) not using all my points. i had 8 extra points, not including any activity points, so i ate some ben and jerry's chocolate fudge brownie frozen yogurt. GOOD TIMES. not necessarily the smartest thing, but good times nonetheless.

Mon, 09 May 2005 17:41:19 GMT

i met cute rock boys this weekend and they loved me. i know it's more because of my personality, but they made me feel really good about myself (i.e. my appearance) so i'm stoked. :)

i went to high school with them. they are all older than me, but only by a year or two. one, with whom i graduated, was telling me how awesome i am. i was essentially shitting my pants because i think he's so rad. he ended up telling my friend that i am "not a hair away from perfect." that made me SO HAPPY. another one is basically my perfect match, boy wise. so great. another one was cool but was really short and is borderline scary. doesn't matter, though.

the point of this whole thing is, i got a super huge confidence boost this weekend. these are the type of people that recognize an amazing person when they see them, that only appreciate a great personality, so i'm not attributing anything to my weight loss. however, it didn't hurt that i've lost weight and now have a little bit more confidence. i still have a ways to go, but i'm glad that weight watchers is doing something positive for my mind as well as the rest of me! i think i'm starting to like myself a little bit more, and this weekend helped a lot. hurray.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 17:37:08 GMT

i'm kind of irritated because i was dumb and i ate mexican food last night. i could tell as i was eating it that it was BLOOMING with sodium. instead of drinking water with it, don't worry, i had a dark and stormy. you know, booze and soda. this is exactly the most perfect meal to consume the night before a weigh in. oh wait, that's right. it was a dumbass move.

my weigh in this morning was, of course, inconsistent. on top of my jubilee of sodium, i used two different scales (i do ww online, by the by) and got different readings on each all 23987 times i tried. i spent a good 15, 20 minutes trying to get an accurate reading and i couldn't. i know this is in part with the scales being dumb/not the same, but jesus jones. i'm EFFING irritated. EFFING.

i didn't log any weight this morning, and i'm thinking of just weighing myself tomorrow morning. it'll probably screw things up, but i plan on drinking 7.9 gallons of water today to flush the heinousness out of my damn body.

hi, i complain a lot.

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 12:26:05 GMT

i gained a pound. but i know why, and i'm going to be good about using the treadmill now that i can use it without bumping my head on the ceiling. mother eff.

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 01:24:15 GMT

i am goddamn friggin bloated from eating ten tons of shit today.

i actually didn't eat BAD foods. i just ate a lot of food. lots and lots of veggies, which are puffing up my stomach like no other. oh yeah, and candy. WHOOPS. at least i walked today. for twenty minutes... but whatever.

Put your playlist on shuffle. Pick the first 25 songs that come up and add "in my pants" at the end.

1. stone temple pilots - dumb love in my pants

2. luscious jackson - ladyfingers in my pants [say what?]

3. liz phair - shatter in my pants

4. story of the year - anthem of our dying day in my pants

5. rustic overtones - girl germs in my pants [p.s. this song is about gonorrhea]

6. veruca salt - seether in my pants

7. brandon dicamillo - bran's freestyle in my pants

8. gavin degraw - get lost in my pants

9. big pun - still not a player in my pants

10. shawnna featuring ludacris - shake that shit in my pants

11. dmx - we right here in my pants

12. finch - letters to you in my pants (acoustic)

13. seven mary three - cumbersome in my pants

14. the strokes - last night in my pants

15. 98 degrees - the hardest thing in my pants

16. cky - fatfuck in my pants

17. new found glory - sincerely me in my pants

18. chevelle - the red in my pants [fucking ew, dude]

19. him - right here in my arms in my pants

20. foo fighters - everlong in my pants

21. velvet revolver - slither in my pants

22. weezer - keep fishing in my pants

23. 311 - all mixed up in my pants

24. violent femmes - add it up in my pants

25. usher - you make me wanna in my pants

HAHAHAHA, i think those are all AWESOME. if i had cheated to make it funny, i don't think they could have been funnier. keep fishing in my pants? the hardest thing in my pants? you make me wanna in my pants? you can't make that shit up.

shatter in my pants... hahaha.

the strokes last night in my pants. classic.

here we are now, entertain us.

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 01:18:01 GMT

and now, for the first installment of my crossposting from adrach to dayglofannypack:

i just ran and now i reek. i think i smell the way i did the summer my mom bought me my first stick of teen spirit.

hahaha, YOU'RE WELCOME! :D lol jk omg ttyl lylas rotflmao wuz^ n2mh g2g tc ws PEACE LOVE HAPPINESS.

sHoWeRz ArE 4 rEaL 4LyFe.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 02:28:02 GMT

i think i'm gonna start posting my entries from my other journal (boonedock306) to this one. i'm not ready to switch names yet, dammit, but the least i can do is post the same post in both journals. boyee.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 22:48:21 GMT

i've officially lost twenty pounds, and i officially weigh what i weighed in high school. that's one milestone down. :)

and now it's time to start losing the weight that has always needed to be lost... i feel like i'm starting anew. good times.

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 12:21:01 GMT

i lost one more pound. it's kind of annoying because i wanted to lose 2 so i could meet the 20 pound loss mark, but oh well. i pigged out like no other this past week, and i have the girl disease. sigh. maybe next week.

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 18:59:55 GMT

i lost another pound. in two months, i've lost 18 pounds. if i lose two more by next wednesday i'll be STOKED, because then i'll have lost all my college weight. ahhhhhh, the glory. it'll be tough as hell because my next weigh-in is during that special time of the month, but we'll see.

my food cravings are LIKE WHOA this week. i hate my pms food binges.

p.s. jess, you continue to be an inspiration. :D hahahaha, but really.

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 02:28:04 GMT

the only reason i went over my points today (4 points over, whoops) is because i made no pudge brownies. and had two. with skim milk. when i wasn't hungry. hahahaha, dumbass.

today was friggin annoying, because i had to rush-eat a bowl of cereal before work. during my break, i found that my carrots were frozen, so all i got to eat was a wedge of laughing cow cheese. yes, the spreadable kind. and then, THEN, i was offered a cupcake, and i took it because they wanted me to work late, and working late = eating late. sons of bitches!

i'm stoked i lost two pounds, but holy shit, do i feel bloated from brownies right now.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 12:45:52 GMT

TWO POUNDS LOST, DESPITE BINGE DRINKING LIKE A CHAMPION, EATING CAKE, EATING TIRAMISU, EATING PANCAKES, EATING CHOCOLATE, HAVING A STOMACH BUG.

oh word! 3 more pounds and i'll weigh what i did in high school. 6 pounds and i'll be at my 10% loss mark. hurray!

i've officially been on weight watchers for two months. well, on the 5th it'll be two months i guess. depends on how you look at it. well, 8 weeks later, i've had a 17 pound loss. how lovely.

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 12:34:03 GMT

i lost another pound. i didn't think i would because i went out to eat FOUR TIMES in four days and i have my lady problem, which tends to make you weigh more. to lose a pound under these circumstances makes me feel pretty good, even though i'm having slight "just a pound!" feelings. ah wel1!

i am proud of how i held up at the restaurants this weekend. on thursday i got a veggie wrap, which i probably would have gotten regardless of diet. it came with a salad as opposed to french fries, and at joe's american bar and grille the french fries are amazing so i'm happy about myself. i did have dessert though... whatever. it obviously didn't hurt much.

on friday we went to border cafe. i had two tacos. i ordered a side of vegetables, which were so good. i ate those first. the downfall was that i had some chips and salsa first (but not ten tons) and we went to krispy kreme later that night. WHOOPS. i only had one doughnut and those are 5 points so i guess i wasn't too bad! plus i did a lot of walking that day.

saturday we went to hard rock cafe, and i got grilled chicken with vegetables and mashed potatoes, which was low fat-ISH. i did so so so so so much walking that day, though. i was in boston and i walked for literally at LEAST 5 hours. good times.

sunday i went to a local restaurant and had something similar to what i had at hard rock, so it once again wasn't that bad. the whole meal ended up being about 15 points which isn't bad, considering i have 26 in a day.

i dunno. now that i write about it it sounds bad. but then when i THINK about the things i COULD have gotten, i'm like, okay rach, you were good.

it'd have been nice to lose more than one pound, but i'm lucky, during this special time of the month, to have lost at all. glorious!

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 21:13:52 GMT

this is ww-related, i SWEAR.

has anyone ever read "jemima j" (or am i the only reading NERD)? long story short, it's about this girl who had a fabulous personality but was "fat." she was so fat that she was ugly, and even though she was funny and fun, people couldn't look past the fat. she pined for a co-worker/friend (who essentially used her to talk about himself and his successes) and, at the same time, found internet love.

someone else at work photoshopped a picture of her and made her look skinny, which revealed that, somehow, under all the fat, she was a beautiful creature. she sent that doctored picture to the internet boyfriend, then immediately started working out/reducing her eating. once she's skinny, she visits the internet boyfriend, has a whole lot o' sex, finds out he has a "fat girl fetish," meets up with the coworker she was in love with, he falls in love with her now that she's skinny, and they live happily ever after.

now, let me just give you a few more details. i don't remember the exact numbers, but she went from about 210 pounds to about 120 in a very short amount of time. she was 5'7". the story talks about how she was "obsessed with working out" and how she essentially ate like 2 calories a day. at one point it's said that she "isn't anorexic, she just doesn't eat a lot and works out during every minute of her spare time."

so basically, what the story is saying is, working out for 5 hours a day and living off lettuce and a tiny piece of grilled chicken makes you skinny in no time! the book made this lifestyle APPEALING. if i didn't know better, i would legitimately try doing what jemima did. it was written in such a way that screams, "hey ladies, don't eat and work out endlessly and that guy you've loved forever will finally fall in love with you! try it, it works!"

sure, the internet boy had a fatty fetish, so he would have "loved her" either way. but that point didn't even stand out. and about the coworker/friend? him falling for her was so weakly written. aaaaaaaaaaaargh.

i'm not even getting into all the things that bother me about this. i figure i've talked for way way WAY too long about it all. i would LOVE to know what other people thought of the book, though. however, i'm probably the only one that read it! haha.

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 19:06:30 GMT

for the past couple days, at least two people per day have made comments about noticing my weight loss. i didn't think 13 pounds was noticeable on a beast like me, but apparently it is! glorious!

i, however, have the worst funny bones craving of all time. or a reese's peanut butter valentine heart. or peanut butter filled chocolate covered pretzels (a la ben and jerry's chubby hubby). or something else with an amazing chocolate/peanut butter combo. DAMMIT. helloooo, pms cravings.

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 10:59:28 GMT

i lost two more pounds despite it being super bowl weekend and despite me pigging the fuck out. that makes 13 pounds lost in 5 weeks. glorious.

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 15:54:48 GMT

i was at my fat prime in my last semester of college (a.k.a. this time last year). in said last semester of college, i was really really really really really really really really really really really fabulous friends with a boy. said boy really really really really really really really really liked me as a friend/classmate/therapist/fuck buddy. it's nice to know that a boy (actually, there were more...which is interesting) liked me in every way possible while i was at my fattest.

and he still likes me. i've lost 11 pounds since then, which he doesn't know. and he really wants to see me again, even if we just hang out and nothing comes of it. sigh!

i sound like i'm in middle school and i don't care!

it's a shame he has a girlfriend that he doesn't even like anymore. one that, you know, he tries to break up with tactfully, but is unsuccessful because she is obsessive. things could be great. and they probably never will be great because i don't know if i can trust him/he can grow some balls and make the decisions that will truly make him happy. ah, the saga continues.

it's also a shame that i can't talk about this in my other journal because i feel like my friends don't want to hear it. at all. a total of two people will read this, and one of them reads my other journal. and she/you probably don't want to hear about it, either! am i right?! haha.

but the point of this is that, no matter how gross i feel, and no matter how disgusting and repulsive i think i am to others, i am still capable of being loved. that owns life.

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 03:15:23 GMT

i was talking to my mommy today, and i was telling her how i "only" lost one pound this past week (pretty much jokingly, although it'd obviously be nice to lose more than a pound). she was like, "go look at a pound of butter. honestly."

i've always known to look at it like that, but when someone reminds you it just puts it into perspective. so far, in the month i've been on ww, i've lost two 5-pound bags of sugar and 4 sticks of butter. glorious! let's bake some brownies...

SYKE!

...with no pudge mix and some yogurt! obviously!

haha, go to bed, rach. you're acting like an ass.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 12:31:03 GMT

i lost another pound, making my total 11 in four weeks. i'm pretty stoked because my eating SUCKED last week. i went out to eat three times and did a lot of snacking in the past couple days. gross, rach.

i'm kind of sad i only lost a pound, but i know it's my fault. sigh! plus, i should get used to "only" losing a pound, because that's normal.

so, i guess my goals for this week are:

--don't go out to eat!

--if that can't be avoided, DON'T FEEL BAD FOR YOUR FRIENDS THAT FEEL BAD ABOUT YOU BEING ON A DIET, RACH. DON'T GET DESSERT JUST BECAUSE OF THEM.

--don't use exercise solely as a make-up for going over in points.

ahhh. i'm part of a little weight lost contest, too, and i'm off to a bad start! i need to kick my ass into gear.

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 14:50:36 GMT

YAY, after torturing myself by weighing myself in between weigh-ins, it turns out i lost three more pounds. this means i've lost 10 pounds in three weeks. i know i won't be dropping an average of three point three pounds per week every month, but how excited am i?

i'm only ten pounds away from what i weighed in high school. that means ten pounds away from losing the shitty weight i gained in college! halfway there, biatch! .....and then i need to lose like 50 more pounds but whatever.

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 19:25:44 GMT

not only is sierra mist free not all that terrible, it provides you with some super amazing burps. i'm about as mature as an 8 year old boy when it comes to burping.

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 18:27:54 GMT

i had my second weigh-in today, and i lost another 2 pounds, making my total loss 7. schaaaaaaa-WING. i wasn't upset that i hadn't lost another 5 or anything, because i know that's not typical, and because i know for the past three days my eating has not been spectacular. i stayed at or within a couple points of my daily points, but my day was so rushed yesterday that i had to eat a non-healthy lunch. also, i had a (small) piece of pizza for dinner. i should remember to not eat something gross the night before a weigh-in.

it's that delightful time of the month, too, so i have the eating horrors. it's awful.

ah, but anyway.