| | i lost four pounds! i'm down to 31 lost! i wore my smallest-ever pants COMFORTABLY yesterday! good times! | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment   |
| yesterday was my six month anniversary on weight watchers. i figured this would be a perfect time to enlighten everyone with my revelations! joyous events abound!
since january i have lost 27 pounds. i honestly thought that i would have lost more by now. i thought, originally, that i would have lost at least 40 by now but i was hoping for 50ish. that's probably unrealistic. in fact, i think i know it is. however, i look back to the six week struggle i had with the 19th pound and i wonder if, i had taken it more seriously, would i have lost more than that by now? who knows. it's in the past and i'm not going to look back.
i'm currently going through a month-long maintenance. i'm not too worried about that because, for the three weeks before that, i lost 7 pounds very quickly and i didn't want to gain it back at a similar pace. to not be gaining weight makes me so happy. this last month has made it very difficult to stay on track but i think i've done a great job. i'm honestly surprised i haven't gained, but i think that's just because my mind thinks a whole lot differently now.
that's the thing i've noticed about weight watchers. when i consume something large, point-y, alcoholic, etc., i have feelings. i don't feel GUILTY... i just feel... aware. i feel upset that i consumed more points than i should, but then i'm always like, "hey, rach. see how this makes you feel? yeah. don't do it again, bitch!" i always think, in my head, that i've done worse than i really did. then, when i go to log what i ate i'm like, you know, it wasn't as bad as i thought. i guess in my brain i have these limits, this awareness, that keep me from eating like i used to and doing bad things. the limits aren't scary and unrealistic, though. they allow me to still enjoy myself. i like that.
confidence... have i gained any of that? i think i have, at least a little. i know i look a little better but i've just been so unhappy with my looks for so long that i can't comprehend me being even the slightest bit attractive. at least my boyfriend thinks so!
ah, boyfriend. we've been together for almost two months. actually, i met him exactly two months ago today. we've been inseperable ever since. i'm not saying that i landed him solely because i lost weight... but i bet i look prettier or whatever because of it. honestly, though? since meeting him i lost 7 pounds, and those 7 pounds made a HUGE difference in my appearance. plus he's super super super into my personality. yeah, he came up to me at the party to talk to me cause i was a pretty girl, but he was hooked when i jumped up on two coolers with him and started rocking out and joking around. true story. the day after the party i thought, he'll never call me. but he did. then i thought, but we'll only be friends cause i'm not a girl that guys go for. but he did. ahhh. but like i said, i'm almost positive it's not weight watchers that got me the greatest boyfriend of all time, but maybe it helped a little. i don't like to think that weight loss brings boys, so i'm not gonna think that it did.
i eat so much healthier now. i've always been a healthy person but i don't sit there and eat bags of chocolate anymore. my 18s are unwearable and my 16s are roomy. shirts fit me better. my arms are smaller. my thighs look a little bit better. i was showing people the tan line(s) on my belly and i wasn't embarrassed. i still have double chins in pictures, but it's ONLY in pictures, and it's ONLY because i rarely make normal faces.
and i'm happier. i don't know if it's because of my amazing boyfriend or what. but i'm happier.
hurray for weight watchers. now if i could just go about getting back on track. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| i've officially lost 4 more pounds.
i've officially lost 26 pounds on weight watchers.
i've officially lost over 10% of my weight.
amazing. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i must have looked like an asshole on my treadmill today. i was rocking out like a 16 year old boy at a punk rock concert. also, i was practicing my air drum solos. hello, nerd.
today was the first day ever (other than this one time, so i guess it was my second day ever...haha) not using all my points. i had 8 extra points, not including any activity points, so i ate some ben and jerry's chocolate fudge brownie frozen yogurt. GOOD TIMES. not necessarily the smartest thing, but good times nonetheless. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i met cute rock boys this weekend and they loved me. i know it's more because of my personality, but they made me feel really good about myself (i.e. my appearance) so i'm stoked. :)
i went to high school with them. they are all older than me, but only by a year or two. one, with whom i graduated, was telling me how awesome i am. i was essentially shitting my pants because i think he's so rad. he ended up telling my friend that i am "not a hair away from perfect." that made me SO HAPPY. another one is basically my perfect match, boy wise. so great. another one was cool but was really short and is borderline scary. doesn't matter, though.
the point of this whole thing is, i got a super huge confidence boost this weekend. these are the type of people that recognize an amazing person when they see them, that only appreciate a great personality, so i'm not attributing anything to my weight loss. however, it didn't hurt that i've lost weight and now have a little bit more confidence. i still have a ways to go, but i'm glad that weight watchers is doing something positive for my mind as well as the rest of me! i think i'm starting to like myself a little bit more, and this weekend helped a lot. hurray. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| i'm kind of irritated because i was dumb and i ate mexican food last night. i could tell as i was eating it that it was BLOOMING with sodium. instead of drinking water with it, don't worry, i had a dark and stormy. you know, booze and soda. this is exactly the most perfect meal to consume the night before a weigh in. oh wait, that's right. it was a dumbass move.
my weigh in this morning was, of course, inconsistent. on top of my jubilee of sodium, i used two different scales (i do ww online, by the by) and got different readings on each all 23987 times i tried. i spent a good 15, 20 minutes trying to get an accurate reading and i couldn't. i know this is in part with the scales being dumb/not the same, but jesus jones. i'm EFFING irritated. EFFING.
i didn't log any weight this morning, and i'm thinking of just weighing myself tomorrow morning. it'll probably screw things up, but i plan on drinking 7.9 gallons of water today to flush the heinousness out of my damn body.
hi, i complain a lot. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i gained a pound. but i know why, and i'm going to be good about using the treadmill now that i can use it without bumping my head on the ceiling. mother eff. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| i am goddamn friggin bloated from eating ten tons of shit today.
i actually didn't eat BAD foods. i just ate a lot of food. lots and lots of veggies, which are puffing up my stomach like no other. oh yeah, and candy. WHOOPS. at least i walked today. for twenty minutes... but whatever.
( p.s. crossposted from my other journal ) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| and now, for the first installment of my crossposting from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) adrach to dayglofannypack:
i just ran and now i reek. i think i smell the way i did the summer my mom bought me my first stick of teen spirit.
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sHoWeRz ArE 4 rEaL 4LyFe. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | i think i'm gonna start posting my entries from my other journal (boonedock306) to this one. i'm not ready to switch names yet, dammit, but the least i can do is post the same post in both journals. boyee. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i've officially lost twenty pounds, and i officially weigh what i weighed in high school. that's one milestone down. :)
and now it's time to start losing the weight that has always needed to be lost... i feel like i'm starting anew. good times. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | i lost one more pound. it's kind of annoying because i wanted to lose 2 so i could meet the 20 pound loss mark, but oh well. i pigged out like no other this past week, and i have the girl disease. sigh. maybe next week. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i lost another pound. in two months, i've lost 18 pounds. if i lose two more by next wednesday i'll be STOKED, because then i'll have lost all my college weight. ahhhhhh, the glory. it'll be tough as hell because my next weigh-in is during that special time of the month, but we'll see.
my food cravings are LIKE WHOA this week. i hate my pms food binges.
p.s. jess, you continue to be an inspiration. :D hahahaha, but really. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| the only reason i went over my points today (4 points over, whoops) is because i made no pudge brownies. and had two. with skim milk. when i wasn't hungry. hahahaha, dumbass.
today was friggin annoying, because i had to rush-eat a bowl of cereal before work. during my break, i found that my carrots were frozen, so all i got to eat was a wedge of laughing cow cheese. yes, the spreadable kind. and then, THEN, i was offered a cupcake, and i took it because they wanted me to work late, and working late = eating late. sons of bitches!
i'm stoked i lost two pounds, but holy shit, do i feel bloated from brownies right now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| TWO POUNDS LOST, DESPITE BINGE DRINKING LIKE A CHAMPION, EATING CAKE, EATING TIRAMISU, EATING PANCAKES, EATING CHOCOLATE, HAVING A STOMACH BUG.
oh word! 3 more pounds and i'll weigh what i did in high school. 6 pounds and i'll be at my 10% loss mark. hurray!
i've officially been on weight watchers for two months. well, on the 5th it'll be two months i guess. depends on how you look at it. well, 8 weeks later, i've had a 17 pound loss. how lovely. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| i lost another pound. i didn't think i would because i went out to eat FOUR TIMES in four days and i have my lady problem, which tends to make you weigh more. to lose a pound under these circumstances makes me feel pretty good, even though i'm having slight "just a pound!" feelings. ah wel1!
i am proud of how i held up at the restaurants this weekend. on thursday i got a veggie wrap, which i probably would have gotten regardless of diet. it came with a salad as opposed to french fries, and at joe's american bar and grille the french fries are amazing so i'm happy about myself. i did have dessert though... whatever. it obviously didn't hurt much.
on friday we went to border cafe. i had two tacos. i ordered a side of vegetables, which were so good. i ate those first. the downfall was that i had some chips and salsa first (but not ten tons) and we went to krispy kreme later that night. WHOOPS. i only had one doughnut and those are 5 points so i guess i wasn't too bad! plus i did a lot of walking that day.
saturday we went to hard rock cafe, and i got grilled chicken with vegetables and mashed potatoes, which was low fat-ISH. i did so so so so so much walking that day, though. i was in boston and i walked for literally at LEAST 5 hours. good times.
sunday i went to a local restaurant and had something similar to what i had at hard rock, so it once again wasn't that bad. the whole meal ended up being about 15 points which isn't bad, considering i have 26 in a day.
i dunno. now that i write about it it sounds bad. but then when i THINK about the things i COULD have gotten, i'm like, okay rach, you were good.
it'd have been nice to lose more than one pound, but i'm lucky, during this special time of the month, to have lost at all. glorious! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| for the past couple days, at least two people per day have made comments about noticing my weight loss. i didn't think 13 pounds was noticeable on a beast like me, but apparently it is! glorious!
i, however, have the worst funny bones craving of all time. or a reese's peanut butter valentine heart. or peanut butter filled chocolate covered pretzels (a la ben and jerry's chubby hubby). or something else with an amazing chocolate/peanut butter combo. DAMMIT. helloooo, pms cravings. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | i lost two more pounds despite it being super bowl weekend and despite me pigging the fuck out. that makes 13 pounds lost in 5 weeks. glorious. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i was at my fat prime in my last semester of college (a.k.a. this time last year). in said last semester of college, i was really really really really really really really really really really really fabulous friends with a boy. said boy really really really really really really really really liked me as a friend/classmate/therapist/fuck buddy. it's nice to know that a boy (actually, there were more...which is interesting) liked me in every way possible while i was at my fattest.
and he still likes me. i've lost 11 pounds since then, which he doesn't know. and he really wants to see me again, even if we just hang out and nothing comes of it. sigh!
i sound like i'm in middle school and i don't care!
it's a shame he has a girlfriend that he doesn't even like anymore. one that, you know, he tries to break up with tactfully, but is unsuccessful because she is obsessive. things could be great. and they probably never will be great because i don't know if i can trust him/he can grow some balls and make the decisions that will truly make him happy. ah, the saga continues.
it's also a shame that i can't talk about this in my other journal because i feel like my friends don't want to hear it. at all. a total of two people will read this, and one of them reads my other journal. and she/you probably don't want to hear about it, either! am i right?! haha.
but the point of this is that, no matter how gross i feel, and no matter how disgusting and repulsive i think i am to others, i am still capable of being loved. that owns life. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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